You are not lazy but it seems your score in destiny is a little less than zero. I know you work your possible best.
I know the feel: “It just doesn’t work for me! Destiny is brutal”, you say. Yes, destiny is brutal and spunky when the rights are not in the right. The worst is when the right buttons are pressed and nothing still works.
Here is where some folks begin to think of sin. True, it may be the cause but it is not always the case. You may do a sanctity check to be sure of your stand. That is wise, but know that your sinlessness does not excite nor appease the system of this world. The system of the world by default operates like Babylon and it fights against the destiny of every soul. The greater the assignment of God on your life, the greater and fiercer the battles you face. You do not like it, right? I too.
I have seen the brutality of destiny and her rocky nature. I have also seen her spunky, prickly and peppery side too. It feels like it sounds!
But why do some seem to bore their ways into fine destinies but some face gruesome trials on every turn? The answer lies in the tongue of destiny. It is complex. It is sharp. Destiny has tough and rough symmetry. Yet destiny always balances up when you face the challenge as you should. It may appear wrecking your back, draining your energy and even tearing you down but it you continue with God you will smile before the game is over.
It is true you have tried and failed twice that number. I have walked it through, and I still do. The feel of it is just like you feel, like quitting. But will quitting solve the problem?
The table can turn. I am not being optimistic. I am opening you up with a spiritual concept. Do not mind that you tried and failed. The contrast equivalent of your persecutions, pains and aches is the quality and quantum of your personhood and place in destiny God wants you to be.
I do not speak like a know-it-all, neither a naïve entity. Many times I do know what the season I am in or even what I am doing. But for the clearest prediction, the journey through destiny can be an odd walk. Yet I know there is a hand carving the way, a step at a time and phase by phase. The beauty is all these leads to one challenge to another and then from one greatness into greatness.
I do not enjoy the ride when it is rough times but I have learnt to talk less, pray and trust God. Talking with men has done more harm than good. There are some issues counselors–good and spiritual–will only complicate. It takes you facing God and Him facing you. Because sometimes He needs you to grow like the butterfly, through the pains.
Just remember, the making of the soul of destiny is not flamboyant. But it has some frustrations. It has more scars. It has more rejections and objections. It has many misrepresentations of your personhood and it has some self-regrets. Yet it is also the humbling tool of the Lord.
Unfortunately, this is where and why many destinies run down the drain. They think quitting is the end-click of their fate. If all who were endowed with surpassing abilities and divine gifts were patient and ready to go through the dark, rocky and shadows of death, the world would have been better.
So, what is your stand? Will you be patient in the pains and come out refined or you will choose to jump out of divine mandate to be a-nobody in the sight of God?
Be robust than Job in times like these since our dispensation is slippery than Job’s. Satan is growing in wisdom and in evil understanding of men. He will try to make you dangle and to dissuade you anyway and by every means he can. So if you want destiny as defined of you by God, get ready for Satan! But with God there is no room for fear.
You will cry many times along the journey. God will not explain lots of things. He will not take away lots of situations you think He should and He will sometimes allow complex happenings your way. I mean He will test and allow Satan to tempt you but never above that which you can overcome.
See such times as cleansing moments and stay with God. These are times God purges, rewires, strengthens and stirs up spiritual muscles. Get up. Be valiant for the fight.